Wednesday, Sept. 21, 2005
O'So Krispie
I didn’t get my car tonight. When I got home from work and called the dealership, the guy who I originally spoke to wasn’t working. I didn’t want to deal with a different person, afraid they might tell me the opposite of what my guy told me. So I’ll just wait until tomorrow when he’s in.
The walk this morning wasn’t that bad at all. It took me 15 minutes. I definitely don’t need to drive to work when it’s less than a mile away. The main reason I do is because it just gets so hot and humid after 11 am. Way too hot to be walking for 15-20 minutes. Maybe when “fall” and “winter” hit down here, I’ll start walking there regularly.
There’s a girl on America’s Next T0p M0del with Charlie Chaplin’s eyebrows. I really hope they hook her up with tweezers soon. When is the makeover episode?
I’ve been so sad. Even before the accident, I’ve just felt low. It feels like nothing is right; I can’t get anything to go the way I want it to go. I guess sometimes that’s part of life. Things happen. Shit happens. But things and shit have been happening repeatedly, back to back.
I’m not surprised I feel this way. I get depressed about once a year, usually September/October. It’s like clockwork. Don’t know what exactly triggers it, but I can feel it coming. And all the bad things happening certainly don’t help.
It’s only a matter of time before I’m crying every night. I don’t know if I mentioned this before, but I started crying in front of the guy who did the estimate on my car after my mom pissed me off. He thought I was crying over the car.
I hope things change soon.
summerroll at 9:48 p.m.